Audio Anxiety April

This update has been years in the making, but I’m happy to finally put it all together in one blog post to up everyone’s audio game. So get ready to take some notes, buy some new equipment, and start experiencing some high-quality audio you’ve probably been missing all your life. I expect all of you to become obnoxious hipsters at coffee shops once we’re all finished here! As always, the audio portion of the monthly update has way more nuance, so don’t forget to take a listen.

After reviewing countless videos on YouTube talking about audiophile terminology, I settled on the above created by chuckolatte because it’s the most down to earth without going too much into the weeds. Keep in mind these terms spill over to speakers as well but will not complete all the vocabulary used by audiophiles to describe everything. It’s just that people are really more particular with headphones then they are speakers, but that’s not to say they aren’t as important. In a nutshell, the advice you use to buy a good set of cans / buds would be the same for a good pair of speakers.

Speakerrating is a recent site that launched indexing Bluetooth speakers of all sizes and brands. It’s an invaluable resource to see people’s opinions on the hundreds of models out there on the market and to have some idea of where they stand against one another. Bluetooth speakers are an excellent compromise for someone who wants a portable device when necessary while having mostly the same quality as a good set of stationary “at home” speakers. With advancing technology in TWS becoming a thing, there are some younger folks who strictly buy Bluetooth speakers only; ditching the RCA / AUX input of yesteryear.

FxSound is a freeware desktop program that allows you to apply customized EQ settings to any output devices you are using. This has the advantage of working at a hardware level versus an application level, meaning that your EQ settings apply to EVERYTHING coming out of the device versus application settings which only apply to that particular instance. So, for example if you use an EQ built into your music player app; then the EQ will only apply to the songs you play via the app. But with FxSound, if you apply the EQ to your output device, everything will have the EQ applied that plays. Games, browser sounds, other apps, movies, music, everything. This program may save those of you who have current passable hardware or unlock the full potential of new hardware you have bought.

Scarbir is who I recommended in the past for earbud reviews and someone I still recommend today. That's because he’s focused on value first (how much you pay for what you get) versus overall sound quality (which most other reviewers use) as a metric. There are so many folks out there who are really good at recommending high quality gear in general, but they don’t really feel cost is a necessary consideration. In other words, if someone feels that a $300 pair of buds is worth it, they won’t give you any other recommendation than that. Scarbir understands we’re not all enthusiasts, and we can make some sacrifices here and there. Thanks to him over the years, I have never felt I needed to spend more than $50 for some kick ass earbuds, and I hope you find something in your price range to love.

Sortabase True Wireless Earbuds lists all the current earbuds in the enthusiast community and organizes them by feature and type. This is a good site to use if cost isn’t a consideration for you. You know what in particular you’re looking for and you just need to know what’s available on the market. If you can’t find what you want here, it probably doesn’t exist. If you’ve been around the block a bit and just want to cut to the chase, this is the site for you!

Okay it’s time to test some sound equipment. The above song by REIGN is what I call “audio scrub killer”. High quality “mids” reproduction is what most consider desirable in audio gear. Often overpriced, overblown prosumer stuff tends to be “V-shaped” and puts heavy emphasis on bass and treble only. But their mids suck (really badly) - and they know that. So, if you need to test some old or new gear, play the above song at 40% for speakers or 70% for earbuds/headphones and take a close listen. The female vocals in this track should sound like the singer is in the same room as you. You should be able to feel the bass in her voice as “textured” yet understand the lyrics with clarity. You can use the written lyrics to guide you on what she’s saying. The instrumentals in the song should never overpower her words and be perceived at the same volume. In other words, base / mid / treble should not be competing in the song, but sound like they’re seamlessly blending one after another. If the song sounds like crap, YOUR EQUIPMENT IS CRAP. Change EQ settings accordingly or return and buy better gear.

Artist is M1dSummerW

You should now have all the tools you need to get started on the path to better audio! Keep in mind that everything I said above is meant as a starting point to hold your own against “audiophile” talk. You’ll have a lot to learn (and put up with frankly) if you want to engage with true audiophiles, who put paychecks toward gear on regular basis. Not to mention the hobby attracts probably the most stubborn folks on the planet, so be warned if you want to go down that route. In any case, that’s it for this month!

Does AI Dream Of Donuts

It’s my birthday month again, so I expect my ingestion of donuts to increase by 1000%. By the way, I haven’t had a “proper” birthday cake for some time since I prefer donuts 3x as much. If you happen to have an irregular birthday celebration food, feel free to let me know what it is in the comments section for any of the weekly updates for March. Speaking of which, I have decided to upload every week over there! So please don’t forget to drop in on it from time to time to catch up on all the little updates.

Since we started things off with food, let’s keep the theme going with AI generated food… and people. If you haven’t watched any of these AI generated commercials yet, you’re in for a real “treat”. That’s because they’re still in the uncanny valley phase, which leads to often humorous (and downright scary) creations that almost make sense, but largely don’t. For those who don’t know what an uncanny valley is, it’s basically the aesthetic point in which something or someone appears human, but somehow seems disturbing due to subtle disparities between expected aesthetic norms. AI generated attempts of photos typically fall into the uncanny valley for example, and thus nightmare fuel is born.

I think it’s easy to forget the people working behind the scenes in every aspect of civilized life. Although in recent years the attention to bring sympathy and empathy to those working in the medical and logistical fields has had some progress made. But those who create content specifically anime and manga, still to this day work in extremely challenging conditions. If you’ve ever wondered while a series keeps going for no apparent reason, or why some episodes make almost zero story progress; the above video may shed a lot of light on the sausage making process that is the anime industry. And I do mean “industry”.

Here in the United States, Covid lockdown started 4 years ago back in March 2020. Remnants of coping mechanisms since then still exist and are active today. VirtualVactions has a lot of cool features on the site that allow you to experience the world without actually being outside in it. Although we’re no longer in lockdown anymore, those working in stuffy office environments or have other obligations that make them homebound may still enjoy this type of content. Excellent stuff to run on your side monitor, or the spare old TV you’re not really using for extra ambience.

Ending off with an even more relaxing video about… well donuts. There’s kind of a theme running through the update this month if you haven’t noticed! Fun little side note, looking for ASMR videos with food is incredibly hard now-a-days due to the fact that a lot of scantily clad young ladies realized it’s a popular search term. So, combinations of ASMR plus (your favorite food) will often times show up with someone half naked next to a microphone for some reason. Food for thought… or more likely skin in our case.

Artist is NoFuture

While I was putting the finishing touches on the blog and linking the Donut video, I realized that I had a recent waifu picture that lined up with my favorite type of donut flavor (chocolate). So here’s NoFuture with a really cool one of Shinobu Jacobs of NMH! Hope you’re all well as always, and I’ll see you normies next month!

Like A Year Of The Dragon

Officially the first post of 2024, I’m going to be shaking things up a bit effective immediately. The monthly blog that’s been a part of my site since its inception will be renamed “monthly news” and a new section called “weekly news” will be added. I’m also going to add a big button on every update to cross link the two, since I’ve taken advice from other folks to include “large clicky things” as much as possible. Apparently human psychology can’t help the siren’s call of pressing or opening something up; regardless of how mundane it actually might be! As stated in the 2023 retrospective, the former "mini news” and “weekend synthwave” have been retired and are no longer on the site. Moving forward, all weekly updates will be archived similar to the monthly ones, but I will be more aggressive to trim the weekly updates to prevent site bloat.

Being honest with yourself is a very important step in personal growth. So much in fact, I think in an age of social media where truth and fiction blur the line daily, it’s hard to see who’s honest about themselves with others. I share these thoughts with you because I reflected upon the absolute failure of one of my projects last year which was getting more engagement over to the website. The recently closed mini news section and weekend synthwave were prime examples of my failures, the latter being particularly bad. In the entirety of 2023, the weekend synthwave page I put up for music got less than 100 views! More depressing is the fact that at least a third of those were my own, making sure the video links were accessible in a mobile browser on my phone. None the less, there are many others like me who took on ideas way too ambitious for their own good, and you can see them all over at the Museum of Failure. It might be a bittersweet stroll down memory lane for you older folks out there, but it’s a fascinating lesson for everyone else in the history of those willing to “try”.

This is a double recommendation, in the form of a YouTube creator as well as his website. Stix has been working hard for a while now growing his channel as well as maintaining a gacha gaming news website. Chiefly it is focused on gacha news for relatively obscure games coming out soon. You can check it out at My Gacha Hub. I personally like to thank Stix for his efforts in attempting to organize gacha gaming releases, particularly as they can be extremely haphazard and disjointed. Understandably you won’t find any adult or 18+ title recommendations from him (he’s a growing YouTube channel after all), but if I ever get my act together here on this site, I’ll be happy to fill that particular space!

While I was doing some research for the 2023 retrospective, I came across some news that Kenko_Cross (creator of MGE) was actually working on a game for a while now! I think he’s been low key on it since the expectations are a little high of someone of his standing; literally holding the entire world’s hopes and dreams in regards to bringing monster girls into the mainstream. He’s already done his good deeds by releasing a couple of bestselling books on the matter, but now he needs to step up his game and make a… game. You get the idea - more monster girls!

Artist is Maru_mao

This is a friendly reminder that the soon to be launched weekly news section will have a lot of “in the moment” stuff that’s more time sensitive to talk about. In other words, minor drama and news that’s really meant for a hot take and then moving on. The monthly news updates will always contain more “permanent” recommendations that should stand the test of time better. So, someone new to the site reading a backlog of content can still (hopefully) enjoy a lot of it without feeling they missed anything. Due to the way I’m going to be formatting the weekly news site, comments and questions are HIGHLY RECOMMENDED. I want to start answering questions and responding to comments on my weekly news, so hence I encourage anyone reading the weekly site to leave them on the bottom of the page. I’ve made sure to allow the process to be as painless as possible, and you don’t have to register an account if you don’t want to (I’ve enabled anonymous posters). I also will try to avoid posting heavily NSFW stuff on the monthly news updates as they’re meant to be more “general”, while the weekly stuff will definitely be spicier. Of course, this site being what it is, expect a very loose interpretation of what is acceptable lewd and not!

Artist is コノシゲ

Obligatory best wishes for the lunar new year of 2024! It’s the year of the dragon, so expect a lot of cool little trinkets and merchandise reflecting this. Speaking of which, did you know that your zodiac sign’s year is technically supposed to be “bad” luck? In superstitious circles, your lunar zodiac year (which is every 12 years for simplicity by the way) has the potential to be very negative if you don’t appease the god of age Tai Sui. In other words, you have to offer some form of acknowledgement that you share the same birth year with the god (read up more on it for details), and that way you will avoid misfortune or ire. Fun little factoid as I think a lot of other cultures would consider “alignment” of any form a good thing than bad.

My final send off for my weekend synthwave section, the above song is an absolute banger and one I listen to often when I take my walks or exercise. It’s pretty crazy how people’s taste in music can differ so much that I should of known better to rely on it as a measurement of engagement. Art (mostly pictures) seem to transcend a lot of personal barriers, but music is quite divisive. None the less I hope you enjoy the song as I think it sounds amazing and is great atmospheric / ambient music for a variety of things. The music video is very well put together as well, but then again anything Blade Runner related is awesome.

That’s it for February! Don’t forget to check out the newly launched weekly news section for more frequent little updates between months. It’s really disorganized and non-sequitur over there, but that’s the whole spirit of the section anyway. Will be back in March for (hopefully) more meaty updates in regards to gaming and other interesting news.

2023 Retrospective

Here we go again with a needlessly long and elaborate post no one is going to read past January. It’s the retrospective for 2023, and I want as many eyes as possible to see it since I put a bit of effort into it. Last year I broke down the retrospective into 2 audio blogs with 4 separate written sections going over everything. In hindsight that was kind of weird, so I’m going to consolidate 2023 into 3 sections instead. There will be an audio blog accompanying each written portion over a span of 4 months. I will be adding new content throughout the retrospective as a response or “reaction” to what I talked about instead of dumping all the new things at very end. So, if you see a random video link or image, it’s recommended you watch or visit it first before continuing with the rest of the retrospective. As always, I highly suggest you listen to the audio blogs as they contain a lot more nuance than the written portion, because I have to keep things relatively brief to avoid walls of text for readers only.

——————— January to April ———————

January is always stressful for me because I want it to be the most auspicious time of year. Deep rooted in my extremely superstitious beliefs, I tend to view having a bad January as akin to having an upcoming bad year. So, I do my best to be as polite, careful, and thoughtful for the entire month to bank as much good karma as I can. Obviously, none of this has any scientific foundation in reality, I just wanted to share the fact that I believe this to be true nonetheless. It’s why in 2023 I had a weird January, and why I feel like I had a weird year overall because of it.

My blog technically doesn’t have a “January” posting because the retrospective acts as it every year. I started doing retrospectives back in 2020 because it was such a fascinating time and everyone was at home wanting to hear other people’s opinions about anything going on in the world. Now 3 years later I’m keeping the tradition alive since I feel it’s healthy to reflect upon what has happened recently and glean what I can from it. I can’t say it’s made me a better person, but it definitely has made me a more sympathetic one - especially to the suffering of others. I do want to say that 2023 taught me a lot on being more focused on “those affected” than “those to blame” whenever I hear news articles talking about this or that. It also reminds me that I have so many visitors from around the world on this site, and I’m extremely thankful for all of them (including you) for sparing some time out of your day to care.

Artist is Secretly Saucy

Talk about a slow start to the year! February was absolutely a slow news month. Typically, the beginning of all new year’s is pretty dry in pop culture related content. I try and make up for this by showcasing an extremely talented artist (Secretly Saucy). The slower the news month, the better the featured artist of the month is. Think of it as some form of cosmic apology for posting a lot about nothing. Although I love my man David Goggins and who doesn’t like a good deep dive YouTube video about memes; there was nothing to showcase elsewise. Ishin was also (in my humble opinion) the crappiest Yakuza game I’ve played in a while.

Inconveniently at this time, my health also starts to take a turn for the worse and will considerably get worse in the following months. February was the last time all year I felt “normal” physically. I was going to be caught off guard completely with what was about to happen to me very soon. I always feel incredibly embarrassed when I look back on what I consider to be “sub-par” blog posts over the years. It’s because I get random spikes in traffic at any time on my site, and whenever the first time someone visits - they may be greeted with an extremely underwhelming blog post which will turn them off from ever coming back.

March was a weird one for sure. Over the years I’ve encouraged people to get outside and travel (if they can) because being on the internet all day leaves an unhealthy view of the world. Ironically however, I’m no stranger to a lot of content involving traveling accidents and failures at a catastrophic level. A lot of my distant relatives work in some form or capacity in military and logistics. As you can imagine, I’ve come across a lot of personal stories thus detailing some really crazy things happening in their line of work.

None the less it’s impossible to state how beautiful the world can be if you can get out there away from the major cities and explore some truly jaw dropping places. Make no mistake these are indeed tourist traps in themselves; but at least it’s going to local economies rather than nameless corporations. I rather have some grandma in Switzerland counting all the dollars she took off a dumb tourist (me); than anyone in a suit far removed from nature.

So, this is the month where things start going bad to worse for me health wise. I start to notice frequent bouts of me running out of breath in the middle of the day without any real explanation. I also start having random pains shoot across my stomach and my heart rate (resting) on average has increased by 10bpm. It’s alarming, and I eventually see a doctor to run some blood tests. Ironically this is not the worst month (since things have just started to turn really bad), but it’s a sign of things to come. I slowly start to ween off my usual exercise routine and begin to tone things down a lot. Eerily, I begin to revisit old hobbies of mine I haven’t done in ages including fishkeeping and collecting figures. I think I subconsciously knew that I was going to be indoors and taking things slow for the foreseeable future.

Artist is Eversor

Whenever things start to slow down, I start to do the equivalent of a “clip show” in which I go back in time and recommend things I’ve spoken of in the past. With the few metrics I actually can access about my site, most folks visit a page once or twice in their life before moving on and never going back. So, it stands to reason that I can actually dig up some old stuff and post it again without many folks noticing at all. With that being said, the only real important update in April was the mention of the game Princess & Conquest. It’s one of the better indie titles developed in the last few years that keeps getting updates and keeps adding content with all the spirit of the original world building in mind. It’s great stuff, and much more in-depth than meets the eye at first glance.

At this point in time, I’ve been diagnosed with a potential case of AMS (abdominal tear). Problem is that my doctor (at the time - I’ve changed since) didn’t want to give me a CT / MRI test due to concerns of unnecessary radiation exposure. He’s just going by his instincts. He tells me to see a GI doctor just in case and maybe a cardiologist (because of the abnormal heart rate). I can’t tell you how frustrated I am at this point both because of the symptoms (a lot of pain) and the fact that even though I have pretty fancy insurance; the doctor that I have is kind apathetic. I’ve up to this point have been seeing him for over 5 years consecutively. Coincidentally, it will be the last time I visit him this year and potentially ever. I make appointments to see both a GI and cardiologist at this point. They each can see me at the end of June (me making the appointment at the end of March by the way). Fun times ahead.

——————— May to August ———————

Artist is Viejillox

If February was my crappiest month, May might be one of my best of 2023. I was on a roll this month with awesome content overall, and still think anyone visiting this site for the first time should re-check out May’s blog post. During this month I had stumbled upon the gigantic video format known as the “iceberg”, which dives deep into any topic from top to bottom. I came across the ATI site which is a source of information for a lot of “creepy tubers” doing videos. And I had two extremely talented artists to showcase that month, including two of my favorites of all time Viejillox and 4riasensei.

One important thing I highlight in May is the importance of supporting and using FOSS (free and open source software) applications if they are available. FOSS software is always generally made with the user experience in mind, and never have any major drawbacks other than a little bit of a learning curve to get over initially. Blinue/Magpie is a pretty niche type of FOSS, but it’s useful to have in your toolbelt if you happen to play retro based window games or even modern games if you need to upscale. It even works with some video players as well, giving you better fidelity than “stretch” rendering which can be sloppy.

Remember the entire sub-plot for 2023 is my gradually worsening health condition. I get blindsided (pun-intended) when I suddenly for no reason whatsoever out of the blue, loose vision in my right eye for two days in May. My vision will suffer in my right eye for the upcoming months all the way until October when it finally recovers a bit; but May and June are the worst of it. I am diagnosed with RVO from my retinal surgeon, and thankfully I don’t have to operate on my eye… for now. The surgeon states that if things get worse in the year (spoiler: it doesn’t) then we may have to go in. All of this is happening while I’m partially crippled by my AMS I mentioned in April.

Artist is Blob with Ai assistance (novelai)

June was a weird rambling blog. During this time, drama was making the rounds with folks in pop culture. Allegedly AI art was going to be the “wave of the future” and apparently a lot of artists took issue with it. I was interested in hearing what both sides had to say, and unfortunately it wasn’t pretty. I’m not going to continue further with my commentary, and everything I said in June still stands. All I have to say is that AI isn’t the boogeyman people make it out to be, and it’s going to be a long time before it replaces actual artists in any capacity. A lot more nuance in the audio blog for this section.

So, the final piece of the puzzle shows itself in June regarding my health conditions. I find out that on top of AMS and RVO, I also have Costochondritis. You can imagine I’m not in a good place physically or mentally at this point. I do my best to soldier on and get better, but it’s going to be a long (and expensive) process. I learn more about the US healthcare system this year than I ever had up until this point. Jokingly with all my friends and loved ones, I officially declare 2023 the year of the medical deductible. Physical rehabilitation and treatment begin in earnest for all three conditions.

Things are pretty mundane in July as I’m too medicated and tired to really find anything groundbreaking to post. July is when I begin my search for a lot of things off the beaten path because I have a lot of time on the computer since I need to take things easy. I begin to post spicier stuff on my mini news section (which in 2024 will be removed - more on that later) and try to encourage people to visit it. For my normies, I start to link extremely long videos in hopes that they enjoy (and get used to) the long form content I start to watch myself. July also of course is the beginning of summer for most folks here in the Nothern hemisphere, so I imagine folks could care less about what I’m really posting and are probably more outside than usual. If there’s anything truly interesting in the entire month of July, it’s the mention of an application that allows you to use videos as wallpaper for your phone. Hence why you see the lovely girl above, and she’s actually my current home screen mascot.

We close off this section with August and an android game recommendation in the form of Aeon Fantasy. If you didn’t visit the mini news section, you would have no clue it existed. AF is probably one of the better games of 2023 to come out and it is allegedly getting a global release (censored and uncensored) sometime in 2024. As of right now the game’s servers are CN/TW based and there’s no real reliable way to purchase items without some grey market involvement. During this time, I experiment with posting “image links” which are images with the link typed on them. My relationship with Squarespace has been nothing but spectacular and I want to stay in their good graces by not violating their TOS. So, with that in mind I have to make sure any links to clearly adult orientated sites cannot be hot linked (clickable) on my site. AF doesn’t have any wiki or official Discord, so keep that in mind if you play it you’re strictly on your own.

——————— September to December ———————

September is a rather uplifting month for a variety of reasons. I revisit one of my all-time favorite YouTuber Whang! and recommend one of videos as I always do. As a matter of fact, I’m posting another one now for this retrospective above. Whang is literally the embodiment of me in an alternate universe where I actually have talent and resources to run a channel like his. If you’ve been living under a rock for a while and haven’t seen one of his videos, I highly suggest you do. He’ll probably be back in 2024 as well. Not much else happens on the main blog for September, but over on the mini-news site I let folks know that my YouTube channel itself starts to experience weird behavior in the form of mysterious deleted posts. In hindsight, at this time I believe YouTube starts to silently roll-out its new AI algorithm to detect and delete content. A few months later they make it known to the public why they’re doing it, but back in September it was really only known to content creators on the platform. In protest I post a bunch of pictures that were rejected in my weekly posts as well as retroactively deleted. Little would I know later on down the road it would bite me in the ass harder. Thank god for Squarespace.

Artist is Krokobyaka

Since March at this point, I’ve been pretty miserable in terms of my physical health. Repeated doctor appointments, and an unnerving sense of dread every day when I wake up wondering if I’m mostly staying in bed today. By the end of September, my RVO is cleared up and I’m discharged from my specialist as “recovering”. That means I no longer need to see him and we’re just going to monitor the situation annually. My vision returns in my right eye about 85% and I get used the slight impairment. That leaves my AMS and Costochondritis to deal with until the end of the year. Things are slowly getting better, but it’s an extremely slow healing process. Starfield gets released by the way and I finish the game in like 3 days straight. It’s horribly disappointing as well.

October was a strange month, because there was a lot of controversy making the rounds from unusual places. Typically, I try to stay upbeat and talk about things rather uplifting and useful to anyone that visits, but it was hard to ignore some of the news. On the (somewhat) mainstream side of things we had the entire Unity debacle which ultimately ended up having the CEO of the company step down a few weeks later. But on the fringe side of things, we had stories like complete human trash making the rounds in Japan, as well as large YouTube channels being called out for various things. It also didn’t help when another YouTube influencer double standard goes largely unpunished once more. For the only story I really had any real interest in, Vyris (indie Vtuber) does a pretty fun summary of the aftermath in her video above. I also recommend you watch her 2-part series on Sexualization in video games as it’s refreshing to hear a woman’s point of view on the topic that actually engages in the content as well. My wife literally shares the same exact opinions (with Vyris), so it was nice to hear a kindred spirit in video form.

By the time October ends, there is light at the end of the tunnel. My strength slowly starts to return, and my day-to-day activities are not as hard to get through as they have been for the past few months. I have a newfound appreciation for all the little things people do for one another on a day-to-day basis, and how much of a struggle it can be to feel unappreciated when you do something for someone. I realize that the last 5 years of physical training have essentially been washed away, and I make peace with it now moving forward.

It goes without saying November was a shit show for normies and cave dwellers in terms of dealing with YouTube. I promised myself I wouldn’t rant about YT this year because I didn’t want the site to focus on my problems and just share content with all of you. Ironically, YT removed the context of this being a “me” problem and became everyone’s problem overnight. Since my recommendations made in November are still valid, I highly suggest you revisit the blog to see what tools you can use to bypass the absolutely stupid decisions made by YouTube in the past few months. Thankfully A LOT of alternatives have popped up since I posted that blog, and you have more options now at your exposure.

Somehow my channel still exists in this universe and I’m not sure what unknown pact I made with an Eldrich god was signed. This brings up the topic of why I created the Mini-news section of my site, and to a lesser degree the Weekend Synthwave portion as well. My goal was to keep my channel somewhat alive with community posts over the last year so that people could still discover my site and my subscribers could have something to look forward to (even if it wasn’t a video). With the way things are now, I think I might just have to keep the community section alive at a bare minimum and try to increase posts in general over here. To that end I personally believe it’s time to retire both the mini-news section and weekend synthwave in favor of something new. I’ll try and post once a week to this new yet-to-be-named part of my site so that it can drive more traffic over.

Artist is Hido

Alas we come to the end of the retrospective and some overall thoughts to close out the year. For the rather inconsequential news, I want to let everyone know that I never actually quit playing Nikke. My wife enjoys the game, and we actually have an account that we play together on. Whenever she doesn’t want to grind an event or is busy, I take over for her. To avoid some cryptic possibility of being banned somehow, we make sure to keep the game only installed on two devices of hers and never sign in or out unless necessary. In other words, I’m still playing the game sporadically on her PC or iPad. Thus, I still am involved in the game, just not super serious enough to really talk about it. Outside of Aeon Fantasy and Haze Reverb, there weren’t a lot of gacha games worth mentioning this year (that are of my tastes) elsewise. I have a few rants to get off my chest too about releases this year, but I’ll save that for the audio portion.

During mid-December, The Proper People (awesome guys) released an urbex video that really hit home with me. I grew up in the exact same era that offices shown in the video existed, and my father (working in real estate) had similar places he brought me to. In other words, a lot of the layouts, design, furniture, and atmosphere were identical to the ones I use to visit as a kid. Although not as grandiose as the TRW building, my dad’s workplace had all the similar trappings - and it was a shot right down memory lane for me. Nostalgia hit hard for me in 2023 because I had a lot of time on my hands to reflect upon my life up to this point. It pains me to realize that 20 years ago to the day, I was some starry eye kid sitting in a classroom in college trying to stay awake.

Probably one of the best videos made on “life advice” for 2023 goes to YouTuber exurb2a. If there’s one thing I want to clarify with anyone visiting my site; I never believe romantic escapism is healthy. It’s good to unwind, decompress, and take stock of your surroundings when appropriate in life. It’s very good to minimize your stress and find peace when you can. But these things should not be mistaken for shirking your responsibilities or substituting movement for action. Hobbies are meant to further enrich someone who is fulfilled and secure for example. They are not meant to be a replacement for a person’s ideology or identity. So many I’ve seen attach themselves to an idea not of their own, or a cause not of their creation. That’s when emotion takes over logic, and “the cause” supersedes “the self”. At the end of the day when you rest your head to sleep, ask yourself what you accomplished today and not what you did. More importantly, what was done for whom and why. If things don’t make sense, or you don’t like the answer - then change. We’ve just begun a new year, might as well make the best of it.

This ends the 2023 retrospective! I hope you enjoyed the lengthy read and content. I will be removing both the mini news section and weekend synthwave on the site starting February 1st, 2024. I will adding a weekly update section that will encompass both instead to make things clearer. I also will probably be posting less on YouTube than I already am and will be directly folks over there to the new section on the site. Finally, I do have plans to run another Kickstarter later in the year so that I can upload videos again, but we’ll see how it goes. Everything said and done, let’s hope 2024 is a productive year for both of us!